Today, 365 days ago, was the start of my grief journey with Opie.
Anticipatory Grief is f** hard work. It’s like we are grieving twice.
Before and after the loss of someone we love.
For me, I was torn between doing everything I could (medication, physio, pain relief, diet changes, exercise changes, so I could squeeze out every extra day possible) and doing nothing (letting him ‘just be’ and spend time with him).
We never know how much time we have with these awesome little beings. Enjoy the time you have with them, making special memories that you will look back on fondly.
It is exhausting, it is draining, it is emotional.
All I can say is, if you are struggling, please find a support person. You don’t have to do this alone.
Cry it out, be real. Don’t fight it, and don’t hide it.
Grief sucks balls sometimes